Goodbye 2010!

So it's the last night of 2010. I figured I should definitely write.

This year has been so crazy for us. We've had a lot of stresses, struggles and worries. We've had bad. Yet, we've also had our share or blessings and good too. Talk about a mixed year! I'm sort of sad to see 2010 go but at the same time I am excited for 2011. I have hope and faith for a good year for us.

In 2010, Talon turned 2! He's so smart, so cute and definitely loving. He does push buttons, as any two year old does, but for the most part he's a really good kid. He talks more now but he is still developing this skill. He's definitely more of an active child than articulate. No matter, he is so smart. You can see the gears turning inside his head as he figures something out. It amazes me at how quick he can pick up on something. Then there is the dare-devil side he has. Lord, give a momma a heart attack sometimes! All in all, I am so proud and impressed with him. He's had a rough year and a half as we've struggled to get on our feet again. Through it all he has remained a great child and I love him so much. There's not a day that goes by where I don't feel he is my whole world. He's still my miracle and blessing and I am still forever thankful.

Kenny and I celebrated 9 years of marriage and 11 years of being together. How time has flown! I can't believe that we are still together (in ways) because we have had some serious struggles and trials in our marriage. Yet, we've pulled through together and I guess that's a sign of true love. The past year and a half has given us a true value to life as a family. As long as we're together, we're ok. Because that's how it seems to fall into place for us. I love him very much and I am trying to really be positive through life. He's my husband and I love him. What more is there? Here's hoping for another 9 years of marriage!

We also got into our own place again. This is a big blessing for us. One I wasn't sure was going to happen in 2010 or even shortly into 2011. It's been a stressful situation for me though. I constantly worry we'll fall behind and have issues. I don't ever want that struggle again. I hope and pray that 2011 will be a great, positive year for us. That we can keep paying rent and not have these worries.

I also got my GED in 2010! What a huge accomplishment! I was (and am) so proud of myself. The first step into changing my life! Now, I am registered to start school January 18th. It will be a long road ahead but I am determined to get there. I'm determined to be a nurse. Enjoy my career and take care of my family. Once I am working and bringing in this income, our life will be so much better. It's a goal I can't wait to reach. Yet, it takes time. I hope for the best and pray for strength because I do expect trials along the way. With God behind me, I can (and will) do this!

Here's praying 2011 is a wonderful year!

Insane!

It's Christmas! And so very much has happened since my last blog. I can't even believe it's been this long! But, this is what's going on now.

We finally have our own place! As of November 5th. We love it and we feel so at home already. Things are really coming together for us. It's a 2 bedroom apartment, perfect fit. We just need to get Talon sleeping in his room and his bed! LOL

We are losing our car, sadly. I hate it but moving on... Seriously, what can I do? Nothing. So we will deal. We purchased a car for $200 and it needs work but it does run. It gets us where we need to be so that is a huge blessing! Praise God for that.

We are living on an extremely tight budget, but you know what? We're living! It's such a blessing to be where we are right now. It was a long, rough year and a half so yes... this means so very much.

A Little More

So, life... it's interesting.

We made the move from Florida to Wyoming, about a month ago. It's hard to believe we have been here that long. I guess things are coming together for us though. We have been able to get assistance with WIC and food stamps. It's much needed and we're so grateful. It was so much easier to do it here than in Florida. We never got a chance to even get them there. Kenny is working but right now his hours are not that great. This week he has 20. Not enough, but we're thankful he has a job and is bringing something home. Lots of prayers for more hours and more sales. Scary to say but people will start holiday shopping in the next two months or so and that will help a lot. I have an interview Wednesday and I'm so hopeful. I need the job. The money I can bring home will cover most of the bills we currently have, which would be great. A huge stress relief. So, lots of praying there too.

I'm calling tomorrow, or rather today, about my GED classes. Hopefully they are starting now because I heard they might not start until late August. I don't want to wait. I just want to go and get things rolling you know? Make the process speed up. Plus, I am calling about early head start for Talon. It will be hard for me but great for him. He needs to get out and have more time with kids his age. I try to take him to the park or play area but it's not always easy right now. This would be a chance for him to spend time with kids and also maybe learn some stuff. My big boy is growing up so fast!

Speaking of, he turns 2 is about five weeks. Can you believe it? Because I can't. *sigh* Where did my little baby go? It's crazy how fast the time has gone. I miss him small. Don't get me wrong though, I love him at this age too but, ugh I miss him as a baby. He's doing great though and for that I am grateful and proud. He amazes me daily honestly.

Overall, life is alright. Financially, we're stressed but isn't that how it always seems to be for me? Hopefully that will be changing soon.

Very Quick!

Catching this at a bad time actually. It's nap time for Talon and boy is he letting me know it! I was trying to keep him awake another ten minutes since he did sleep a little later this morning, but apparently that's not going to happen.

There is so much I want to update about so I will have to come back and post again when I have more time. I figured I'd do a quick update until then.

We are settling nicely into Wyoming. Unfortunately, we are still struggling financially but that will change soon. I'll be applying for three jobs this coming week and hopefully have interviews, then get an offer. I'm excited to work (kinda) but sad too. I've loved all this time with Talon. I stopped working the pizza shop the beginning of June so it's been about two months since I've worked. Two months since I've had to leave Talon behind for work. That is truly the hardest thing.

Hubby's working and may be finding a different job that offers more income. Right now it's what we need. Thankfully we've received assistance and that's a big relief! Much easier to do things here in Wyoming than Florida. It was like FL was the devil or something when it came to help.

Ok! Apparently, he needs a nap NOW. LOL More to come soon...

Black Bags & Boxes

Oh my...

Funny how sometimes life can take a turn and just send you through a tailspin. That's exactly what I've experienced in just a week. Can we say crazy?

On Thursday, I was basically "fired" from my job at my sister's pizza shop. Reason: she got upset at a comment I posted on my Facebook. I found that insane honestly, but hey what can you do right? I guess when someone wants to be evil and just selfish they do whatever.

The plan was to move back to Wyoming. Basically, we felt it was the only choice we had and the only positive option for us. Scary? Yes, absolutely, but it also had benefits we could already see. Moving July 9th would give us time to get everything organized and ready, and most importantly set into action for hubby's transfer to the store in Wyoming.

We went to visit my SIL and MIL in Fort Myers for a much needed break. Since I didn't need to be home at 9 AM on Tuesday, we stayed longer. On Tuesday night I found out that my sister was planning to be difficult. She wanted us to pay rent (a lot btw, for what we were having) and she wanted it to start as soon as we returned home on Wednesday. But we really didn't have an option so we'd have to swallow it until we could move out. Most likely being two weeks. Yet when I woke up Wednesday morning I checked my phone and found texts from her. She was being rude and hurtful. Saying mean things and just acting childish. She demanded to have us out THAT DAY. Real nice huh? We had nothing packed or ready to go. We really didn't know where we were going to go.

We did it though. We got packed and cleaned the room. Everything is in big black garbage bags or boxes... crazy to see our stuff packed like this. It was a good feeling leaving though. It was nice to know that we were no longer captive so to speak. I was no longer going to be taken advantage of. It was nice.

We're staying at an extended stay motel about 35 miles from hubby's work. We'll be here for two weeks and hopefully all will go well with his transfer and we can head to Wyoming June 24th. That's the plan anyway.

I am super stressed and need all the prayers I can get. I know God is keeping His hand upon us and things are falling into place for what needs to happen. It's just scary and nerve racking sometimes.

Living Life Daily

Been a little bit since my last post. Nothing much has changed, not a whole lot has been going on. Just taking life one day at a time, which is all anyone can do really.

Today, I finally got a new haircut. I've been needing to get at least a trim up since my hair was in bad shape. I do have a few gray hairs as well, but nothing to worry too much about. I guess at the age of 30, I just have been through a lot and it's aging me? LOL Anyway, I absolutely love the cut and I think it's fun and flirty. Not that I need to flirt since I am married, but even flirting with Hubby can be nice right?

Talon got a new haircut too, on Monday. I just haven't been able to get a good picture of it. This time we went shorter than before and it's able to be spiked up all through out the top of his head. I think it's a cute style but it does make him look older. Not that I want him to look older at all! That's ok though because his hair grows so super fast too!

We're taking a trip to Fort Myers again. Going to visit SIL and MIL. I enjoy the visits there, I just hate the early morning drive back home. UGH. But it's worth it. This time we are planning to visit the beach. I definitely want to take Talon. This is important to me. His first visit to the beach/ocean. Something I think he will enjoy but be leary of. I'd also like to go to the park there with him. That way everyone can enjoy him like I do. When we visit the park we have so much fun and it's truly a bonding experience for us together. I just love it.

Things otherwise are going ok. Nothing grand. Hopefully things continue to smoothly go along.

So Blessed

I'm blessed. Though I often don't feel it and I often feel that life is just "too hard", I am blessed.

Each day that I wake up, is a gift. A gift to have another day of love and happiness with my son and husband. Another day to just be.

Isn't it nice to just know that regardless, you are here and living? That each moment is for you and you are able to do with it what you will... Sure, we might not feel like that but, it's true. We live these moments. Ultimately reaching and searching for a "goal" in the end. Naturally, there are evils and "negative" things that come along. These take such hold and we often lose sight for what is good.

I have so much stress in my life usually. That I feel it. You know, the sinking ship feeling? Pending doom? That it's ALL coming to an end... Yep, that type of feeling. I often wonder how am I able to enjoy life with my family feeling like this? Does Talon sense that something is wrong? Or does he not notice a change since it's be very stressful for me for most his life? That sentence really bothers me actually. It's not him at all, he hasn't caused me stress. It just so happens that January 2009 started the rolling battle of stress for me. Before then, shortly after his birth, there was so added stress to my marriage but it wasn't Talon. None of it was him. It wasn't too much to handle even though at times it did feel like that. But it just became so much in January. Life was not going to be easy for us at all. Each passing month became worse and well, then it just became my life.

For fear that some might read this that I am not wanting to know, I'll just say that God has taken some stress from me. He's blessed us once again. My son is such a blessing. Each day I have him, is amazing. I can't express in any other way just how he completes my life. Though things haven't gone "perfect" or as I planned, he is loved more than ever and very much wanted. That is the truth from the bottom of my heart.

When he hugs me and tells me "hiiiiiiii" for "love you"... yeah, my heart melts.