Living Life Daily

Been a little bit since my last post. Nothing much has changed, not a whole lot has been going on. Just taking life one day at a time, which is all anyone can do really.

Today, I finally got a new haircut. I've been needing to get at least a trim up since my hair was in bad shape. I do have a few gray hairs as well, but nothing to worry too much about. I guess at the age of 30, I just have been through a lot and it's aging me? LOL Anyway, I absolutely love the cut and I think it's fun and flirty. Not that I need to flirt since I am married, but even flirting with Hubby can be nice right?

Talon got a new haircut too, on Monday. I just haven't been able to get a good picture of it. This time we went shorter than before and it's able to be spiked up all through out the top of his head. I think it's a cute style but it does make him look older. Not that I want him to look older at all! That's ok though because his hair grows so super fast too!

We're taking a trip to Fort Myers again. Going to visit SIL and MIL. I enjoy the visits there, I just hate the early morning drive back home. UGH. But it's worth it. This time we are planning to visit the beach. I definitely want to take Talon. This is important to me. His first visit to the beach/ocean. Something I think he will enjoy but be leary of. I'd also like to go to the park there with him. That way everyone can enjoy him like I do. When we visit the park we have so much fun and it's truly a bonding experience for us together. I just love it.

Things otherwise are going ok. Nothing grand. Hopefully things continue to smoothly go along.

So Blessed

I'm blessed. Though I often don't feel it and I often feel that life is just "too hard", I am blessed.

Each day that I wake up, is a gift. A gift to have another day of love and happiness with my son and husband. Another day to just be.

Isn't it nice to just know that regardless, you are here and living? That each moment is for you and you are able to do with it what you will... Sure, we might not feel like that but, it's true. We live these moments. Ultimately reaching and searching for a "goal" in the end. Naturally, there are evils and "negative" things that come along. These take such hold and we often lose sight for what is good.

I have so much stress in my life usually. That I feel it. You know, the sinking ship feeling? Pending doom? That it's ALL coming to an end... Yep, that type of feeling. I often wonder how am I able to enjoy life with my family feeling like this? Does Talon sense that something is wrong? Or does he not notice a change since it's be very stressful for me for most his life? That sentence really bothers me actually. It's not him at all, he hasn't caused me stress. It just so happens that January 2009 started the rolling battle of stress for me. Before then, shortly after his birth, there was so added stress to my marriage but it wasn't Talon. None of it was him. It wasn't too much to handle even though at times it did feel like that. But it just became so much in January. Life was not going to be easy for us at all. Each passing month became worse and well, then it just became my life.

For fear that some might read this that I am not wanting to know, I'll just say that God has taken some stress from me. He's blessed us once again. My son is such a blessing. Each day I have him, is amazing. I can't express in any other way just how he completes my life. Though things haven't gone "perfect" or as I planned, he is loved more than ever and very much wanted. That is the truth from the bottom of my heart.

When he hugs me and tells me "hiiiiiiii" for "love you"... yeah, my heart melts.

Big Positives!

I've taken the first step in making life better. Today I applied for my FAFSA! I hope to God that I'm approved and that I can get into school. Finally, become a nurse. This is what I want, and now I've started the process.

Lots more to do though. Lots.

On another good note, Talon is 100% binky free! It has been 8 days since he's sucked a binky. 8 Days!! Way to go to my little man. I am truly proud of him. And me. And Kenny. Because though Talon was very easy to break of the binky, it was hard to not give it to him sometimes. We did it though and now our son is done with it. Yippee!

I love my son and husband so much, I truly do. Life will be better for us, I promise.